Today was tough.
I’m not gonna lie, this comeback has been a little hard.
I love my work and always feel grateful.
But I don’t know, just feeling strange.
Without control of my own time.
Getting exhausted at the end of the day.
And this kind of frustrates me.
Because I know things are just gonna get harder from now on.
And I need to focus on other stuff too!
Need to keep working on myself, my habits, and my side projects.
But it just seems so hard right now.
I don’t want to accommodate.
To get comfortable where I am.
And become the person I decided not to be 5 years ago.
I dropped out of university because I didn’t want to be trapped in the rat race.
I didn’t want to get satisfied with a monthly salary and live for the weekend.
I’m so afraid of that.
I need to fucking wake up.
Organize myself.
Do my best at work.
But keep the focus on me!
On my projects and dreams!
And I know I will be able to do so!